“Your life is like a river. If you’re aiming for a goal that isn't your destiny, you will always be swimming against the current... Find out what your destiny is and the river will carry you."
-The Men Who Stare at Goats
A bit cheesy, I know. And the movie itself, not that great.
But that quote struck me.
Anyone that has known me these last few years knows how challenging working as a nurse, particularly in oncology, has been for me. I get that a lot of people don't like their jobs or find their jobs boring or stressful... but when it makes you cry all the time-- before work because of anxiety, during work because of an overwhelming sense of doom, and after work because of exhaustion-- it feels like swimming against the current, a constant struggle.
Working on a farm or garden has been something I have wanted to do since college, but never found enough time or had the opportunity to go away and live somewhere else for an entire season. Now that I have decided to try something completely different (or what people who are in my world and a part of my life right now consider to be unconventional) and made this change in my life, I'm not sure if I can go back. It feels right, even though I don't know where it will take me. But I'm content to continue floating along with this current.
2 comments:
I'll pray for you Angie! I think that if your old job is really causing you that much agony, it's really not worth it. I really think you have to somewhat enjoy your job in order to remain sane.
Glad to see that you're happy though-
Yes, I agree. Thanks for the support and prayers!
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